The Chronicles of xH Life Episode 2

After a fateful night yesterday, penning down my thoughts of Good and Bads, I have Shannen asking me several times today regarding my blog. I chose not to disclose my blog to anyone, and it will be lucky for them if they ever find this blog somewhere. Nevertheless, I thank her for showing concern, it means so much. 

Slept at 2am yesterday after a message dialogue with my leader Derui regarding the disappointing issue of a member, I remembered I could not fall asleep until a long while later. It was not long later my alarm rang, and it was 6am. Dragged myself out of bed and determined to do a dynamic morning gongyo before the start of the day. I did it. I'm so determined to change.

It was YFP's 2nd combined rehearsal today, and its the first time all of us are gonna perform in costumes. The bright yellow is actually quite "damaging" to the eye as it was so bright. However, it feels really good to have everyone wearing the same and perform to our best! The feel and the spirit is significantly different when we were in costumes. We felt a deep sense of mission now to perform to the best of our abilities. We were generally hyped up throughout the rehearsals today. Everyone was so focused, determined to display the Soka Spirit to everyone!

And so, we proceeded. We succeeded. Block D has finally achieved the highest block attendance of 75% and D1 has achieved a stunning 88% for the best group attendance! Although 100% is still the ideal, I believe we can reach there soon. I'm so excited to see how the turnout of the performance will be like with full strength!

The Chronicles of xH Life Episode 1

Exams had ended and my past week had been lacklustre. I dislike myself in such a state where I have no idea what I'm supposed to do for the day. I became distraught. I became worried. I started to really set myself into deep thoughts regarding my life, and what I do want to achieve in the years to come.

There are so many things holding me back that I was not able to take the first step. Insecurity, social value and what not. Low confidence and insecurity has always been my greatest flaws since young. I do not have good looks, not really in shape, not someone you would like to have to be a lifelong partner, not confident etc. I realised this and I wanted to change all these. I do not want to be a loner who is just waiting for opportunities to come, or for someone to appear who really appreciates who I am. Will I ever find this person?

I do have interest in some of the girls I met but the feeling was never mutual. Got rejected, and then I fall back to my fundemental flaws again. Sometimes, I just feel that I'm never worthy of someone's love. However, deep down in my heart, I do believe that the someone is also looking for me, a better me that is. 

My life starts to lose momentum. I discovered that I'm not as proactive as I used to be. I lost interest in alot of stuffs, and gave in to temptations. This is not right. The devilish functions attacks and I unknowingly fell into their hands. I need to get out, I need to fight to return to the high life condition to handle matters. 

I'm 24 and there's nothing to my name. I'm not earning my keeps. I'm not academically impressive, not physically impressive. I always wondered why I have issues like this. I want to change but I'm always stopped by my own errornous belief. As 2014 is coming to an end, I guess, I need to really fix a direction I want in my life. 

I participated in this Youth Friendship for Peace event this year. It was not exceptionally enjoyable, probably due to my fluctuating life conditions. However, there were enjoyable moments as well. I tried to fulfil my role as district leader and as a CIC, while I thought I am managing quite well, I realised actually I could not manage at all. My member whom I have been following up with told me to leave him alone. As much as I do understand he needs personal space, but I can't help but feel very disappointed in myself for not being able to reach out to him and encourage him. It felt even worse when I do not know the reason for him closing up to kosen-rufu activities. Have I done something wrong? My whole semester is seemingly affected by this incapability, and my results eventually got affected as well. 

Well, I never thought of being the best CIC or district leader whatsoever, I just want to do whatever I can for the people around me so as to encourage them. While some methods work for some, some dont. I just felt that I have not yet able to inspire anyone with my life. 

This moment on, I got to change. I got to do my human revolution. I want to treat people with a sincere heart. I want to look into people's eyes and tell them that I really care. I want to inspire people around me with my life. Perhaps, I haven't given my all in my life yet that I'm facing these issues. I decided to give my very best in all that I do from now on. I shall study hard. Study hard to achieve the best ever results in SMU for my last semester. I shall study hard on the Buddhist study to equip myself with the knowledge to be a better person. I shall chant hard. Chant that I'm able to reach the highest life condition to deal with daily matters. Chant that I'm able to inspire people around me through the words I say and the actions I do. Chant that I'm able to live a life joyously. I shall not be in this lacklustre state anymore. 

I want to be someone who has my own opinions. I want to be sure of what I want in my life and go all out to achieve it. This process is gonna be a struggle but I do not have much time. I need to get this done immediately. I need to sort out my life. 

Ok this shall be it. Will pen down various thoughts I have during this process here. Let the transformation begin. 

#297daysofvictories - Day 54

It was labour day yesterday and my day was filled with fun. Attended SMUSD Instituition Meeting Rehearsal in the morning at Xuan You's house. I was rather surprised with the turnout yesterday as I expected less. Nevertheless, it was really fun.

Nothing's better than seeing a group of 16-17 individuals coming together, participating dilligently, with the heart of wanting the best for the IM. It was great. Really. We shared alot of ideas, had alot of fun and jokes. It was really heartening. I believe Saturday's IM will be awesome. Looking forward to it. 

Xuan You has also played host well, by preparing lunch for all of us. I'm on a diet but I failed to restrict myself much yesterday as the food was good. Later on, met up with LDF-ers to Sushi-Tei. Yesterday is a day of indulgence, today have to restrict. 

I have always loved gatherings with friends and having lots of ideals and things I wanna do but often hindered by my fear and low self-confidence. This is my fundemental darkness and I have to breakthrough that. 

Here are some of the LDF-ers photos!

One of my closest group of comrades from SSA. Really fun being with them. 

So that's how I spent my day yesterday and I think I could do more in persevering and restricting myself. Must have the goal in mind!

This morning, as my dad had to leave house early, I did not manage to go out for a run or swim. Hence, I started my Insanity Day 1. It was really shag and tiring and im glad that I sweat alot throughout the workout. Seems very effective and I shall strive on to proceed to do that everyday. 

Have a great day ahead all!

#297daysofvictories - Day 51

I'm going to write this blog to talk about my #297daysofvictories campaign. 
It is going to be a reflection of what I am doing daily in the form of victories. 

There are so many things I want to achieve, and I need to get a hold of what I am doing with my life. Life is supposed to be filled with achievements.

 My main flaw is the lack of confidence in myself, and also the conviction. 

I must change that. 

Tomorrow is the day that I must really change, do my own human revolution, and change for the better. Developing into a fine individual is ultimately what I want to achieve in my life. 

Starting, step by step. 

I'm gonna post what I'm doing daily to make sure that I keep track of what I'm doing and am I achieving what i planned to achieve? 

Let's see. 

Wish me luck!

Are we prepared for fare hikes in public transport?

Refer to the article here

http://www.todayonline.com/singapore/ptc-announce-decision-bus-train-fares-thursday

My comments:

"I think this raising of fares thing is getting to a point of beyond ridiculous. I understand there is rising operating costs and the companies needed to survive. But are these public transport operators making a loss or nearing making a loss now? it is a PUBLIC transport mind you. Isn't the $1.1billion BSEP scheme includes covering their operational loss (if there were any) too? So what is there to justify raising of costs? I do commend their effort to try to include more concession schemes to help lower income workers, but there should be other means other than raising the fares for this? 

I believe if the service standards have been good, we wouldnt mind raising fares. Yes, its true that the BSEP has improved the situation abit, BUT, how many cases of delays and breakdowns since 2011 already? You expect us to pay more for a more unpleasant journey and a journey filled with uncertainties? I pay more for the risk that i may have to walk on the tracks later on. I pay more for the risk that i might be stuck inside the train inside the tunnel. I pay more for the risk that I might have to take bridging buses which take forever to come instead of the train to get home?

Honestly, if the government has a heart, they will not even talk about raising fares for now, at least put in the most effort to resolve the surfaced problems first. When we get back the reliable public transport that we used to have, then we talk about raising fares yea. From what i see, no matter what reason they provide to raise fair is deem unjustified."

Your views?

My S3 and its problems

Hi Samsung Mobile Singapore

I cant describe how my S3 is pissing me off. Im using this phone close to 2 years and I can tell you a series of unfortunate events that happened in this phone that is getting on my nerves day after day. 

1. S3 Sent to hospital within 1 year of warranty: Phone totally crashed and unable to on when it was not even 1 year. Luckily it happened just before the warranty ends, else I would have to pay a large amount of money to get it fixed.

2. Apps crashing: Apps crashing is to be expected but it is really getting on my nerves. It becomes so frequent that it is beyond my tolerance level. Whatsapp and facebook, my most commonly used application can just CRASH without any reason. A pop up message "Facebook has stopped.." isnt helping. Facebook related apps too, crashed like what.

3. Android updates: Somehow or rather, android updates will solve a problem but create another. One definite thing is it definitely affects battery life. Now, my phone cant even upgrade to a newer version because somehow or rather, the update will meet an error somewhere and stop. I'm guessing the apps crashing issue is due to me using an older version of android (actually not very old, android 4.2), whereas these apps might have already been configured to 4.3, which im not sure of.

4. Selective USB: This is the worse nightmare that i have. My S3 has selective USB problems where ONLY a certain USB can be used to charge my phone. I'm helpless with other usb wires and I have to bring the one I always use around everywhere i go.

5. Battery Life: I cant describe how my S3's battery life is causing so much frustration in my life.
a. Lagging apps causing me to wait and wait and lose a few percent of my battery life at the same time without doing anything. Hello, I merely stared at the screen and then to see my battery life drops. =.=

b. I can lose up to 10% of battery life just by simple messaging during a bus journey. It is ridiculous that the battery life drops so fast and I have to keep my S3 on constant charge and look for a power point everywhere I go.

6. Charging issues: This is a deal breaker! Can u imagine having to charge for hours and your phone didnt get charged? And upon using within minutes, it drops while charging?! like what the hell?
a. There was a period of time where my phone charges so slowly that I wanted to throw the phone away. I switched off my phone and charged overnight only to realise that battery life was risen from 30% to 66%. Come on, I know smartphones will drain battery, but charging problems like this how to tolerate?
b. Apart from the selective USB mentioned above, this phone can just somehow stop charging at some point of time and I have to always check if its charging or not. It was charging before I sleep at 27%, but when I woke up, it was 9% and NOT charging. I have to go out the whole day and my phone is only 9%. This is pissing me off totally.

I had an S2 previously but really, I did not have so much problems then. #Samsung , if you want to really compete with your competitors, please ensure the reliability of your device and not focusing on so many gimmicks that might not even be useful to us. Battery Life and Charging issues are the two things that most smartphone users cannot tolerate. I understand that a phone close to 2 years will have its problems, but come on, Selective USB and charging issues?! These are the basic things of a phone and it is unacceptable! Quite a few of my friend's iPhone 4 are still working fine after 3 years, not much issues, only lagging apps which are acceptable.

My contract is due for renewal soon, rest assured I will not buy a #samsung phone again. I'm honestly not sure if these problems are #android or #samsung problems, so, to save me from going through this shit again, sorry, no matter how awesome your #S5 is going to be, most likely I'm going to switch to iPhone 5s. I feel the need to address my problems here as going down to the service centre will only ask me to pay and pay for something which I felt was not my fault. What did I do to cause these problems? Your service staff at samsung are also a disappointment. They are people who don't seem to know alot about samsung phones and area always recommending repair payments.

Just my 2 cents worth of my unpleasant experience with my#S3 , feel free to comment if you share the same problems too. Thank you. 

2013 Bits and Pieces

Best Actor 最佳男主角
戚玉武 《警徽天职2》
黄俊雄 《信约:唐山到南洋》
方展发 《信约:唐山到南洋》
王禄江 《小小传奇》
陈邦鋆 《揭秘》

Best Actress 最佳女主角
陈莉萍 《志在四方》
郑惠玉 《志在四方》
瑞    恩 《骤变》
欧    萱 《信约:唐山到南洋》
白薇秀 《信约:唐山到南洋》

Best Supporting Actor 最佳男配角
张震环  《骤变》
苏志诚  《揭秘》
曹国辉  《信约:唐山到南洋》
徐鸣杰  《我要嫁出去》
方展发  《警徽天职2》

Best Supporting Actress 最佳女配角
林慧玲  《志在四方》
庞蕾馨  《爱情风险》
金银姬  《小小传奇》
林晓佩  《信约:唐山到南洋》
曾诗梅  《信约:唐山到南洋》

Best Drama 最佳电视剧
《志在四方》
《我要嫁出去》
《警徽天职2》
《骤变》
《信约:唐山到南洋》